Emily

I grew up an active, successful teenager who seemed to have it all. I was in impeccable shape and to the outside observer, my life looked perfect. I never had periods and I was ok with that. In fact, I liked it. I wanted to have control over my body. I had way too many things to do to slow down and deal with menstruation. I wanted the power, the consistency, the follow through…no messy emotions, no messy bleeding. Men had that. Why couldn’t I? It seemed to be so much easier to get around in the world. So what if I had to take drugs for my acne and my unwanted hair growth. So what if I was continually anxious and exhausted. The drugs worked and I kept up with my busy, important schedule. And on the outside it all looked so pretty and perfect.

At the age of 17, I was diagnosed with PCOS. One would think this would begin the story of my healing, but it only took me further into the abyss of disconnection with my body. My doctors told me that I no choice but to go on the pill. Quotes like “cancer” and “never being able to have children” were repeated. They promised birth control wouldn’t change who I was. They promised this was the healthiest and honestly, the only way to treat my “disorder”. For the next 10 years I searched doctor after doctor to find someone who might have an alternative method. They all fed me the same story, F.E.A.R.

Laughing Sage burst into my life when I was at my wits end. I received the email blasts for over a year without ever even reading them! I just didn’t believe that something so seemingly simple could have an impact. One day, I finally read Alisa’s testimonial and something clicked. I began a 6-month program and for the first time in my life, I felt truly known. It wasn’t easy to change my habits. It was terrifying to go off the pill and have my doctor and family not really understand or support me. I even thought that giving up my “control methods” would somehow hurt me. But, Laughing Sage gave me the knowledge and the support to begin trusting my own instincts again. They gave me permission to listen to something deeper. And I have learned that control and power over the body is something very different from what a majority of the medical community teaches.

Today, I am finishing my 9th healthy, happy menstrual cycle in a row! And the truth is, every single aspect of my life has changed since I began my program with Laughing Sage. This is not an exaggeration. By taking the time to learn to listen and appreciate my menstrual cycle, I am finding the deepest FLOW in my life, my career, my relationships, and most importantly my daily dealings with my SELF. Everything is easier. Everything is lighter. The energy I used to keep it all looking so “perfect” is now flowing into ENJOYING my life. And that to me, is POWER.